May the Odds be Ever in Your Favor...

• 1. Are looks important in a relationship?
•      Of course they are… At least in the beginning.  Its that lusty attraction that gets the ball rolling into something more!  
• 2. Are relationships ever worth it?
•      I have learned a lot about myself from each failed relationship, and even more from my current successful one.  If not for anything else, I do find relationships to be a great tool to use to learn a little more about who you are and where you stand with others.
• 3. Are you a virgin?
•      Nope
• 4. Are you in a relationship?
•      Yup
• 5. Are you in love?
•      What I have come to understand as “being in love” is extremely similar to how I feel towards my boyfriend now, so I would have to say yes.  
• 6. Are you single this year?
•      I have not been labeled “single” at any point within the last 365 days… No
• 7. Can you commit to one person?
•      I’m notorious for doing so!  Long term relationships are in my blood!
• 8. Describe your crush
•      I think I have passes the crush point in my relationship… Although, at times my boyfriend makes me feel all giggly and nervous, as he did in the beginning ALL THE TIME!  Its his presence that draws me toward him.  He knows how to carry himself to the point where nearly everyone respects and admires him.  He knows how to project his voice and lead, and I love that about him!
• 9. Describe your perfect mate
•     This is getting a little redundant, don’t you think?
• 10. Do you believe in love at first sight?
•      I have never experienced it.  I would have to say that the “love at first sight” phenomenon would be closer to lust or an infatuation than actual love though… So I guess I don’t believe in it… I think it takes a deeper understanding of another’s inner workings that creates love.
• 11. Do you ever want to get married?
•     For the first time, in my current relationship, I can actually picture myself getting married.  This has never happened to me before, but yea, I do!
• 12. Do you forgive betrayal?
•     It depends on what level… I wouldn’t forgive a cheating boyfriend or a friend that would be willing to hurt me for their own selfish reasons! 
• 13. Do you get jealous easily?
•      I don’t think I’m a jealous person… I get annoyed by certain things, like when a guy CONSTANTLY has to gawk at and comment about a passing girls body or something like that… But Thats not jealousy, because I get irritated because certain men feel the need to “judge” every woman’s body, its not cuz I crave the attention!
• 14. Do you have a crush on anyone?
•     Whats with this redundancy! 
• 15. Do you have any piercings?
•      Many!  16 in my ears; 1 in belly button; and my nose… I had micradermals at a point, but my body rejected them.
• 16. Do you have any tattoos?
•   I love tattoos!  I have a LOT!
• 17. Do you like kissing in public?
• eh… I’m not big into public affection… I just don’t like making other people uncomfortable… I mean, how does it feel when you’re the 3rd wheel watching your friends make out?  Unless you are involved in the kissing, its just awkward, so I try to keep it to a minimum! 
• 20. Do you shower every day?
•    No!  I hate showering! I only wash my hair twice a week… I wash off (from the neck down) nearly everyday though.  Got to be hygienic I guess! haha
• 21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?
•     Well I hope so :(  I wouldn’t want my relationship to be one-sided!
• 22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
•      possibly… My family JUST left my house, so there’s a possibility that they are talking about our night together!
• 23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?
•      I’m in a nearly 2 year relationship with no mishaps, so yea!  Before this I was in a nearly 6 year relationship and I stayed faithful as well… I don’t wonder, unless I’m driven away, I don’t even think of other guys when I’m with some one… I mean you can never be happy in a relationship if you are always looking for better!  I love what I have.. Why look for more?
• 24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
• I honestly think I will be! 
• 25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?
•    I would like to stay in my relationship, yes.
• 26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?
• Yes <3
• 27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?
•    this kid who hates my guts wrote a song about me with his band!  haha, it was great!
• 28. Have you ever been cheated on?
• Unfortunately yea… But it doesn’t matter, cuz once I found out I kicked him to the curb and never looked back!
• 29. Have you ever cheated on someone?
•     There may have been this one instance of weakness a long time ago… I was in an abusive relationship and felt trapped, and there was a guy who seemed to be helping me through it, to get out of the relationship, and we kissed… But I immediately recoiled and caught myself… even in a horrible relationship, I wasn’t one to cheat!
• 30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?
•     I have considered it for future self… Right now I’m fine… But I’m not against it as I age… I want to age gracefully, thats all… I don’t want saggy boobs, for mostly comfort reasons, but I would consider one day fixing them so they don’t EVER reach my belly button!
• 31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?
•      Of course!  Love is a bittersweet game we all play!
• 32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?
•      I don’t think I ever got to the point of loving somebody who didn’t love me… At a point in my abusive relationship I was made to feel like It was unrequited, but when I tried to leave, he didn’t let me!  Its a complicated thing to explain.
• 33. Have you ever had sex with a man?
•     yes
• 34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?
• yes
• 35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
• I’m pretty sure I’ve only kissed people older than me.
• 36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?
•    I guess I’d have to say My current boyfriend became a besty before he was my lover… so yea.
• 37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?
•     I don’t think so, but they may not’ve let me in on the hatred!
• 38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?
•    YES, you never know where you’ll find love… My “love story” with Chris is a bit unorthodox, but in the end, we realized we were perfect for each other and finally made it official!
• 39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?
•     yea
• 40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?
•      I’ve tried, I cant give merit to how good they actually were though! haha
• 41. Have you had sex so far this year?
•     I live with my long-term boyfriend… what do you think?
• 42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?
• Sometimes all you need is to be held in that persons arms so tight you can just breath and kiss each other… It’s what I like to do when I’m especially upset… I can go a while.
• 43. How long was your longest relationship?
•    Nearly 6 years
• 44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?
•    I have had 3 serious boyfriends, counting the one I’m with now… And 2 in between serious boyfriends (they just lasted a month so I don’t really count them.)
• 45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?
•     2
• 46. How many times did you have sex last year?
•     Enough to satisfy both of us :)
• 47. How old are you?
•      23… a month shy of 24 :(
• 48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?
•   I’d ask who, and then I would go and find that somebody and kill them. (that isn’t a joke… They would be dead!)
• 49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
•      He has control over his life!  He knows who he is and He isn’t afraid to be that person!
• 50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?
•     I have a one chance policy… If it doesn’t work out the first time, it most likely won’t work the second… So no.
• 51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?
•      My sister and My brother, thats it.  Chris is up there, but my siblings are unconditional.
• 52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?
•    Yes… My high school best friend… She took advantage of our friendship, on a level I didn’t know was even possible… I could never trust her again.. even if I wanted to forgive her… I could never forget the last time we hung out… I haven’t gotten over it yet, and its been 2 years :-/
• 53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?
•    I know our relationship made a LOT of people mad… FUCK EM!
• 54. Is there someone you will never forget?
•     Sonja… I think about her everyday.  She was a great friend and was taken from this world WAY TOO EARLY!  She showed me how to gain much of the confidence I have today.  I could never forget her!  I owe it to her to keep her alive in my minds eye!
• 55. Share a relationship story.
•  I don’t want to share a specific story about our relationship… I much rather describe something that has never happened before to me in a relationship… absolute equality!  I don’t believe either one of us feels we are more superior than the other.  Everything we decide, we decide together.  I think this is so important in a relationship… Absolute communication!  And I’m proud to say I have that… And ITS RARE!
• 56. State 8 facts about your body
• 1) I’m 5’10”… a good half a foot taller than the average female.
• 2)  I have dumbo ears… They stick out… which makes me uncomfortable wearing my hair up.
• 3) I have a freckle in between my “pointer” and middle toe on my left foot, which has always baffled me, since I thought freckles needed sunlight to live!
• 4) I love that I have blue eyes
• 5) I am super paranoid about any and all flab around my mid section.. I try so hard to get over that.
• 6) I have big boobs… And I think they are perfect!
• 7) I carry my stress in my neck shoulders and head!  They almost always ache
• 8) I use my body as a canvas… painting it with many tattoos so far… and more to come.
• 57. Things you want to say to an ex
•      I would’ve stayed with you forever, just cuz it was easier than to start a new relationship… It was familiar… But you took it too far… I want you to know that its your fault we broke up… not mine, and certainly not his.  You drove us apart.  Your actions are to blame, no one else’s.  But yes, I’m happy things didn’t work out, because I stopped being happy with you a long time before we broke up.  And if you didn’t take things too far that night, I probably never would’ve felt happiness like I do now.  So thank you for Fucking up!
• 58. What are five ways to win your heart?
• 1) I love a voice that stands out from the crowd.  One I can hear and know, 100%, that its yours.
• 2) I need a person with strong hands.  I like to feel protected, when I hold your hand.  I like to feel small sometimes, especially since I usually carry the whole world on my shoulders.
• 3) I want to be Mr. and Mrs. Smith.  I want us to fight together!  I never want to feel anything but equal to you!  I can fight my own battles, I don’t need a savior, and I don’t want somebody who is looking to be saved.
• 4) I want a person you cant describe in one word.
• 5) When our eyes meet, I have to be able to see your soul… Th subtle gestures are the most important things for me… I want somebody who isn’t afraid to feel, or break the walls of “masculine” stereotypes… Just be you, not what society tells you to be.
• 59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)
• please see tumblr thumbnail photo
• 60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?
• currently there is almost a 5 year difference, thats the biggest.
• 61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?
• Their voice

• 62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?
• Tell me they love me in front of their friends.  
• 63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
• when 2 or more people cause pleasurable feelings for one another in genital areas using their genitals or mouth. haha, odd question.
• 64. What is your definition of cheating?
•    Cheating starts in the mind… so obsessive flirting with one person who isn’t your gf/bf can be considered cheating in my book.
• 65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?
•     I love tickles… When he starts with tickles, I know it will be a good night!
• 66. What is your favourite role-play?
•    I have a VERY dominant personality, so I like to play a submissive role.  It feels good to let go of my own self, and let somebody else take charge!
• 67. What is your idea of the perfect date?
• Alone!  Away from EVERYONE we know… a day of doing WHATEVER together!  A little bit of what we both like!  I’m easy to please, I just NEED my alone time with my boyfriend!
• 68. What is your sexual orientation?
• Nonya! 
• 69. What turns you off?
•    Prejudice, especially sexism!  
• 70. What turns you on?
•     I love when he tells me “I don’t know what I’d do without you” or he tells me how different I make him feel than any of his other girlfriends.  He isn’t afraid to be sensitive, and I think its sexy!
• 71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?
•   Again… NONYA!
• 72. What words do you like to hear during sex?
•  Depends on my mood… sometimes I want him to whisper sweet nothings into my ear… Sometimes I want him to be a bad boy… Sometimes I just want to hear our breaths in sync with each other.
• 73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?
• I want a surprise party for something… I always wanted one of those.
• 74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?
• I love a tall guy!
• 75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?
•     One time, After spending the day with my boyfriend at the time… I had to catch two buses to get home… I chose to catch the latest bus to Ashburton and catch the next bus from there home… But I had missed the last 2nd bus… This lesbian couple, both nurses, saw me crying outside by the bus stop because I didn’t know what to do, my phone died and there was no way I was walking through the ghetto at night alone.  They offered to give me a ride home.  It was totally out of their way!  They told me how they were trying to have a baby themselves and if I was their daughter, They hoped some one would be kind enough to help her in time of need!
• 76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?
•      My high school had a middle school attached to it, separated by a floor.  One day a saw a girl in the cafeteria crying.  I went up to her and asked her what was wrong.  she was an albino spanish girl, and she told me her classmates were relentless, bullying her for it everyday all day.  It didn’t help that she was also a transfer in the middle of the school year, and didn’t know anybody.  I told her that I would walk her to her class after lunch everyday and she could sit with me at lunch until she met friends.  I liked that little girl… A month later she thanked me, and told me if it weren’t for me, she might have killed herself, because she had been contemplating it for a while, but I showed her some people CAN be nice.
• 77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?
• As you get older, age differences become less of an ordeal, because they become socially acceptable.  My own personal opinion is that you shouldn’t venture too far away from your own age (2 year difference) when you are in your teenage years. in your 20’s, 5-7 years is more acceptable.  30+, a decade.  I think, developmentally, the younger you are, the less you’ll have in common with somebody older than you… and even in mature adult age, reaching past a decade will cause problems because two people with more than a decade between them are in two different chapters in their lives.
• 78. What’s your dirtiest secret?
•   I’m not about to tell Tumblr… Thats for sure!
• 79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?
•    Sometimes I get a tinge of jealousy when I see how easy some of the people I know have it… I see somebody’s parents buy them a brand new car, or see another person have all the clothes she could ever want!  Another friend who’s parents give them an unlimited gas card, etc.  But it only lasts a second, because I love my life, and I know without the hardships I’ve endured, I wouldn’t have what I DO have now!
• 80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
• Just an hour or so ago, to my mom, aunts, and sister when they were leaving my house.
• 81. Who are five people you find attractive?
• My boyfriend… I don’t feel like thinking of 4 more! haha
• 82. Who is the last person you hugged?
• My sister, unless I can count my dog… she’s a person in my eyes!
• 83. Who was your first kiss with?
•    It was a tap kiss… My moms friends son, Adam Little! haha
• 84. Why did your last relationship fail?
•    He became a belligerent drunk who had one too many “black outs.”
• 85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
•     I don’t know, I don’t think so.  I’ve never needed the internet before, I cant see myself ever needing it in the future.

survivorsupport:

I’m thinking about the time I was followed home by a stranger as he was yelling gross things at me from his car along with the time I was cornered in a store by a strange man trying to be my “friend.” 

And now my heart hurts from panicking. 

Me too :(